Isn't it wonderful! The constant racing palpatations of the heart, not in a joyous fashion of course. The lack of appetite, resulting in the stomach not having anything else to use it's splendid acid to devoir, so it turns to the lining of itself to munch on, causing painful ulcers to occur. How does one zone out from the drone of discontent, disappointment and disillusion? One moves from their present residence to another, leaving behind a toxic and unfulfilling relationship, to discover the treasures of peace, contentment and aloneness. Also the silent snoreless nights will be a treat.
There is much I'm losing in this adventure. Material things mostly. The one I will truly miss is the wonderous 35mm digital camera I've grown to love using. I've got to get me one of those beauties, this small point and shoot gadget I've got is not as varied in it's abilities and the quality of the shots aren't as good, but it's better than a kick in the pants of course.
There's much I'm gaining in this move though. My sanity. I'm looking forward to feeling better. I'm looking foward to being rid of the constant pain in my gut and in my heart. I'm looking forward to the lack of restraints and the lack of complaints, and won't miss the lack of attention, respect, understanding and communication.
I've got a lot to do though, my new pad is a mess! I've got to rent me a carpet cleaner and get me some Mr. Clean, so I'd better get at it. Cleaning up that place and cleaning up my life are just two steps I need to take to get me to a better place. I've got a few more to go. I'm eagerly looking forward to finding the peace and serenity in my life that I found in these photos.
